26/30 : I couldnt make it
Salam hye!
Its yaya here, it's been a long day since my last writing. Actually I dont know whether my love story will still continue or already toward the end. Sobs.
Seriously everythings look fine all this time until last week, he have to go outstation at Sarawak. And everything started to getting worst.
At my side i still pretend as okayh with him busyness. But i dont know he started to ignore me. Like totally ignore me.
At first after he came back from sarawak, he told me his phone getting broke which he cant contact me because my phone number in there. On thursday he told me about that, and we just chatting like usual at the evening. But at the night he didnt contact me.
Then on friday, i started whatsapp him first. And he the one who stop the conversation. And then on Saturday also im started to whatsapp him first but he didnt reply because already fall asleep.
On sunday, I notice he online untul 12 am plus plus. But didnt contact me. So im decide on monday i started whatsapp him first, but again he cut off the conversation because want to sleep, with note "Sambung esok ok" But yesterday he didnt whatsapp me again.
Im fell so frustated, and i have decided i dont want him anymore. Enough for this. I think like, if he serious to make me as his wife, then at least give a comitment.
So i already deleted his number, conversation. turn off my baitulmuslim site. I will not see his last seen, his details, his number, enough of that.
Maybe he not the one. I dont know. Too many hope i put in this relationship. Maybe i should stop now. He have all my husband material, but the comitment he cant give me, i cant handle it.
Maybe there anyone outthere who the real fate of me. Im just only to pray and patience. Hope my heart will strong enough to face this situation. Im so sooo sad for now. Because theres many thing i already decide for 'our marriage' but all the hope broke into a pieces.
Pray for me. May Allah guide my heart to right way.
xoxo
Yaya
Its yaya here, it's been a long day since my last writing. Actually I dont know whether my love story will still continue or already toward the end. Sobs.
Seriously everythings look fine all this time until last week, he have to go outstation at Sarawak. And everything started to getting worst.
At my side i still pretend as okayh with him busyness. But i dont know he started to ignore me. Like totally ignore me.
At first after he came back from sarawak, he told me his phone getting broke which he cant contact me because my phone number in there. On thursday he told me about that, and we just chatting like usual at the evening. But at the night he didnt contact me.
Then on friday, i started whatsapp him first. And he the one who stop the conversation. And then on Saturday also im started to whatsapp him first but he didnt reply because already fall asleep.
On sunday, I notice he online untul 12 am plus plus. But didnt contact me. So im decide on monday i started whatsapp him first, but again he cut off the conversation because want to sleep, with note "Sambung esok ok" But yesterday he didnt whatsapp me again.
Im fell so frustated, and i have decided i dont want him anymore. Enough for this. I think like, if he serious to make me as his wife, then at least give a comitment.
So i already deleted his number, conversation. turn off my baitulmuslim site. I will not see his last seen, his details, his number, enough of that.
Maybe he not the one. I dont know. Too many hope i put in this relationship. Maybe i should stop now. He have all my husband material, but the comitment he cant give me, i cant handle it.
Maybe there anyone outthere who the real fate of me. Im just only to pray and patience. Hope my heart will strong enough to face this situation. Im so sooo sad for now. Because theres many thing i already decide for 'our marriage' but all the hope broke into a pieces.
Pray for me. May Allah guide my heart to right way.
xoxo
Yaya
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